“Then leave your schemes alone // adore the rising sun // and leave a man alone to his fate.”
We need no one’s pity, he sneers in my mind, nor did we ever want it. I remember how those lyrics fueled my indignation and anger – his indignation, their anger, I suppose – so many years ago. That anyone should suggest I change the story, or that I could even do so and thus apparently refused, offended me to my very core. I understand now, though, that I was even more so offended by the presumption that the story needed to be changed at all. Who are you to question the order of things?, I should have said. Who are you to question the necessity or fairness of another’s fate? I knew so much less then than I do now, however, and it had not yet occurred to me that most people will simply never understand what it is I record. All I knew was that I felt not comforted by their concern, but frustrated, disappointed, impatient. It’s an insult, he growls, and I nod in agreement. They do not need your pity. We do not need your pity.
This hit deep. As someone who struggles to understand the complex relationship of another set of divine twins – or whatever the hell Michael and Samael are – I think I can save them from themselves.
I can’t.
You’ll always try, just like I will. It’s hard not to want to help, even if that help is unwanted.
On Wed, Nov 22, 2017 at 7:13 AM, Only Fragments wrote:
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I guess just being witness is what they want from us. Someone to tell their story?
Ahh, I get this with my own writings (fiction, not published yet). I always feel like I’m channelling something true, something that exists, and to try and change it is sacrilege. And that’s just not a view that’s often shared in the writing world, where the focus seems more on the authors than their subjects. I can’t say I’m entirely sure I do understand what you’re talking about (do we ever?) But it resonated with me. Thanks for sharing :)
Haha, I don’t know if even I totally understand what I’m saying at any point in time. :) But I’m glad you understand the feeling!